As of tomorrow I only have six weeks until my due date. Charlotte was 3 weeks early which has me thinking I could see this little one in a couple weeks- yikes! I do not feel ready. I'm still in unpacking mode and trying to establish a schedule- and trying to do school! Well, the other 4 were late so I guess it's more likely that this one will be too. Maybe. You never can tell.
I am feeling exhausted from all of the box hauling, unpacking, sorting, arranging and rearranging. I am ridiculously short of breath. By the time I get dinner dishes done I have no energy left for anything or anyone. This baby is my most active and takes my breath away with his wild behavior. Of course, that's a really fun reminder that he's strong and healthy, but it's also a bit uncomfortable at times. When I finally sit down at night I have a lot of Braxton Hicks contractions. It's really hard to believe that he will be doubling in size before birth- I feel huge already!
The house is feeling more orderly, but we still have a ways to go. Our library shelves are in and filled. After enjoying the pretty space for a whole day, I had to move a whole bunch of stuff out of one side of the room so the electrician can install a phone jack tomorrow. Now my desk is buried. Kind of feels like one step forward, two steps back. It's hard for me to continue to be patient with the progress. I really want to have that room DONE so I can plan a "regular" school week- and so I can focus on my next project which is getting clothes washed and space ready for the baby.
10 1/2 weeks.
That's the amount of time I have before my due date. All of my babies were late except for Charlotte who decided to come 3 weeks early and totally mess up my "routine." I was thrilled to have her early, but also shocked and not exactly prepared. In fact, I had to send a dear friend to Target with a list while I was still in the hospital because I didn't even have some of the necessities yet.
So, I have 10 1/2 weeks, more or less, to be ready for this blessed event. I am so excited to meet my tiny little man. I am so excited to dress him in the cute little orange and blue things I've been collecting and the things I've been knitting for him. I am so excited that I get to experience having a baby BOY again after all these years of girl babies. I am so excited to wear him in my sleepy wrap and keep him to myself.
But in the midst of all of that excitement, I'm feeling a bit of stress too. I have 10 1/2 weeks to complete 9 1/2 weeks of our Tapestry of Grace curriculum. I REALLY want to finish it before baby comes so I can feel right taking a true BREAK from teaching. The kids will still have work to do each day that they can mostly do without my help, but our bulky, wonderful, intense school days will be done. But in that time our house will be ready (2-3 weeks from now) so we'll have to take some time off from school to move. I want to be NESTING.... not UN-NESTING!!